Shocked to know that ... hace n her bf broke up ... haiz ... 5yrs of relationship .. and is lyk ... w/o much consideration ... and the other party ... jux .. ended it ... cuz of one main reason ... stil wan to play !! it's a stupid reason ... i mean .. it's reali veri stupid .. haiz ... i reali ... reali dunn0e ... as in ... feel ... reali veri ... lyk no fate in relationship ..

i stil reali cant accept .. cant accept tat he smoke ... i reali cant .. i dunn0e why ... i reali ... reali feel veri tired al of a sudden ... i dun wan to keep asking him if he got smoke etc ... but it just lyk ... im asking bcuz i expect something ... but seems lyk ... no progress lyk tat ... i dun wan him to take things for granted .. jux bcuz i let u smoke ... im reali afraid ... afraid tat one day i reali cannot take it ...

and yes ... abt the possessive thing ... i hae understand ... and noe a way to ... reduce it .. and break it ... i reali expect something in return ... expect it not to b too long ... reali reali reali veri tired ...

Fri went to pubbing w my gals ... b4 tat went to Mr Victor Chia's wedding dinner ... haha ... nth to comment ... but ... saw alot of teachers ... hmm ... afta tat go pubbing w my gals ... joc .. yan n hace ... went til lyk .. 6am den rch home ... den is lyk ... ard 0630 slp .. den hor ... 5 wake up ... rod wake me up .. den afta tat he come n fetch me ... to go to his frene's ROM ceremony ... haha ... den they got ktv pub session afta tat ... but i didnt go ... mayb i dun reali wanna see him smoke .. i reali hate ... i tik ... i guess ... i hae to .. drink to make myself forget abt tis thing ba ...

Today went out wid my gals again .. tis time .. afta our meeting .. we went to The Cathay to meet up Pat and Shi Min ... den afta tat go Swensens to eat ice creams ... haha ... den lyk tat lo ..

how i wish tat .. one day ... i can reali ... reali b drunk .. fully drunk ...

i tik .. im one on the list ... of retrenchment in my co ... cuz ... i havent got anything to do since i come back from China ... but anyway ... i wun feel it's a pity or sad to get retrench by the co .. cuz .. i have been wanting to leave this co veri long liao .. den some more .. i got a 2yrs' contract .. tat's why cant quit .. soooo .. mayb tis is a gd opportunity for me ?
oh ya ... mayb the co is clever to retrench at tis time .. cuz dun nd to pay for bonus .. n AWS .. ya .. mayb tis is unfair to me .. although the retrenchment list is not confirmed .. but .. im already prepared for it .. actually not prepared la .. is hor .. oreadi expected le la .. haha ... so hor .. wun lyk .. hae any regrets or wad lo ..

hmm .. another thing is .. relationship prob .. haiz .. sianx la .. reali hate to come to relationship prob .. is lyk .. haiz ..!! sianz .. dunn0e wad to sae .. one of my best frenez .. tgt w his bf for veri long liao ... but hor .. problems stil exist ... as in .. there's stil problems unsolved la .. haiz .. den i was lyk .. reali veri sianx ... me n rod ... stil hae things .. unsolved ... wil the things drag til .. lyk .. as long as we are tgt ?? cannot loooooooo .. the problems needa b solved fast .. haiz ..

sianz la . .dunn0e wad i toking abt .. dun sae le ...